The Numbness I Feel

Featured Image: Sydney Rae

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The numbness I feel

Is my heart, icing over

After an avalanche

Froze my soul

Tiny snowflakes

Laying on my lungs

Until they collapsed

Under the weight

Of one thousand disappointments

Of heartache, worry, stress

 

Crushed under the voice

Of your fury

As uncontrolled as a falling glacier

Plummeting into the depths

Only to rise up again

After promises

Of change

 

Lies told

When you have no intention

Of plodding through

The snowfalls

Of your own heart

The drifts of your shattered soul

Mind

Body

 

And instead,

Choose to stay trapped

Under the icebergs

Of your own making

That will be

Your destruction

Instead of your revolution

 

The warmth

You could feel

From lighting the fire

To melt this frozen prison

Is

Perhaps

Too far away

For you to recognise

So, instead

You add more cold

To the frozen fragments

Of who you once were

 

Every apology

Every guilty feeling

Every bit of shame

Taking the temperature

Further down

Until your heart

Slowly stops beating

And you wonder

How it happened

So quickly

 

But we,

Left behind,

Know it began

With a single snowflake

You did not brush off

That grew

To freeze

Not only yours

But my heart, as well.